I'm not disappearing, just that I am trying hard to make myself breathe from all the things I got myself into the past weeks. Work, school & friends. It's hard juggling these 3, commitments from work, self motivations to drag myself to school & do revisions and organized outings to meet friends. Haven't met some of favourites for a long time & I am glad that the year end is coming, making more chances & reasons to exchange a few conversations.
I never felt learning is a chore until now. School has never been so dreadful & it seems like the novelty is gone for schooling. So what if the days are short & I have a flexible life? I missed the hassle that I used to have in shifting classes, running late for classes & what's not. At least I was having fun half the time w my friends. Now we are just on our own world. Friends suddenly become so superficial. Just hi for lectures & bye for later, no connections, no chemistry, no friendship but purely companionships not avoid being label as a loser. Maybe cause I was lazy to start socializing but really, it's super tiring.
Ahhh, life will be better right?
